
At this exact moment I have such disdain toward myself for creating a ridiculous disparateness of a life.
I know I am speaking in such vague terms, but that's the best I can do right now. I'm dealing with a personal plague. So hard to expand. So difficult to explain. I do know what I need to do. I actually took an important step, albeit ever so teensy, but still a step. Even the slightest movement towards self improvement is progress right?
The jewish high holy days start tonight. I am certainly not the most religious person, and have recently been conflicted with a legion of issues about religion in general. That being said, I still plan to use this time for personal reflection, and try really hard to focus on the things that can make me a truer version of me. I don't know who I really am, but for the first time in a long time I think I may be closer to being him.
L'shana Tova.
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